I have never done a blog before, but have thought about it for a while. I don't necessarily think me or my life is that interesting, but I do enjoy writing. So I thought this may be cool for me. Sort of like an online journal.
I am a Mom of a beautiful daughter, wife to an amazing husband, daughter to the best woman that ever walked the face of the earth, and a friend to some truly amazing people.
What did I think my life would be like??? Hmmm..people ask you when your younger what do you want to do with your life and where do you see yourself in 5 years. As a child I was always very sick. I never really thought that I would have a life. That in itself would be a blog of all blogs, so I am just going to leave it at that, but say that I never expected that I would be a Mom. I was told I would not be able to have children because I was so sick as a child and my body had gone through too much. But in the year 2000 I was blessed with the most amazing gift...a beautiful baby girl. From the second I heard her heart beat, I new she was my beautiful baby girl. The girl that carried her and kept her safe for 9 months and then allowed her to be ours was the most amazing girl. All of 18 years old, but yet so wise and so in love with the baby that she was carrying wanted more for her then she could give. That girl and this baby changed my life forever...My daughter is now 11 and I still look at her and think every day how so very lucky we are that she came into our life. I call her my heart on 2 feet because that is what she is. Without her I wouldn't be able to breathe...She is my everything.
But with all the love I have for her, we are now hedging the teenage years...and it is scary and frustrating and aggravating and exciting...Now I am really worrying about how to help her be the most amazing, kind, loving person she could ever be. My mother taught me unconditional love. My daughter has that, she knows that I always love her, I may not like her all the time...but I always love her. I have learned that as a parent not only do you teach your child, but your child has an ability to teach you...if you let them. She has taught me so many things, but the most important thing that she has taught me is that there is no such thing as a bad kid. There are only bad choices. Learning that was huge for me. SOOO...I now try to do my best to help her make good choices.
With 2011 getting ready to be gone and 2012 standing at the doorstep I hope for health and happiness, of course. But, I also hope for strength and guidance to help me be a good Mom and someone my daughter can still confide in, snuggle with, and even get aggravated with. That will assure me that I am focusing more on being her Mom then her friend...
