Growing Up

I sit and look at my daughter sometimes...tonight we were sitting in her room and she was sitting on the floor with her back to me.  She is still so tiny I can see the ridges of her spine, her hair is long beneath her sports bra and as she moves her arms to go through her school books I see it...from this girl who is so tall and weighs next to nothing is definition. Her shoulders and upper arms...For those of you that read this you are probably thinking...AND???  Well the AND is...who the hell is this???  My baby is tiny and adorable and loves to snuggle, and from behind this girl looks like an athlete.  Yes, she is my daughter but come on people....when does this happen?  The hard part of all this is that this girl, my daughter, who I refer to as my heart on two feet, is growing into this beautiful, amazing young girl.  And because she is a girl, she is going through growing pains and one minute she is the epidomy of a teenager, and the next she wants to sit on my lap and snuggle.  I never know which one of those wonderful girls I will get. 
I am not complaining at all, but as a Mom I want to be everything all the time for my daughter, and when she is going through these stages, it is hard to feel like I am accomplishing that. We are half way through her first year of Middle School.  I am afraid to blink because then the little girl who I cradled in the crook of my leg as a baby,is going to be starting High School. 
It still amazes me how much one human being can love another. Jenna just has shown me and taught me so much.  Before I was a parent I had no idea, and so now I get it. Unless you are a parent, and not just a biological parent, adopted, foster, any parent, no one can explain this love. There is no verbage in any writing anywhere in the universe that can describe the love a parent has for a child.  We were so fortunate to have Jenna brought to our lives by an amazing girl who cared and carried her for 9 months. And yet, the bond Jenna and I have is amazing. When she was a baby, I would know right away what she needed, how she needed it.  It is still that way. I know my child like noone else...that is also something that someone who doesn't have a child would be able to truly understand.
Wow..I feel like I am all over the place tonight...but I just was so blown away by her. She amazes me every single day.  She is becoming such a little person...it makes it hard to remember that I am her Mom right now..not her friend...that will have to come later....